Reflections of the Chimera

Recovering from a nasty-ass cold that my hubby now has and there is a nice storm raging outside. Elora is down for a nap already which is pretty sweet. Her nap was far too late yesterday and so at bedtime she didn't go to bed. My fault. Today she is napping early. :) Yay for me.

I managed to get the bedclothes washed, the floor mopped, lunch made, dishes done for the second time, and I'm just chilling out. Would to play some WoW since I haven't been on in a while, but the log in server is down. *frown* maybe I'll do some facebook. :)

We bought our plane tickets to Boston! YES! I'm so very excited!

Goth & Industrial on the tables, live fetish shows and Mon Chere herself is going to be showing off some leather.

DH isn't much into going to clubs so I'm taking my friend H and we're having a girl's night out. :) She had never been to Mon Cherie's Chamber when it was open so I'm taking to the next best thing! I can't wait!

It's a shame I have to go to work tomorrow morning early. Ahhh, for us moms... our pumpkin has to bring us home by 2am. *grin* Still time to show H the sights and sounds though.

I just looked at my profile! Wow! I need to update it! ;) LMAO. Looks like after I do homework tonight I might just do that. ;)

I'm getting so excited. We're still debating on the best way to get there. Looks like we'll fly. Rates are good right now. Taking Elora with us. It will literally be our first family trip. DH and I have never even taken a trip together. We'll be staying a time share on Cape Cod. Lovely. We're renewing our vows on the beach there at sunset. I hope to have a family member take pictures. I would like a close old friend of Ryan's from there to do the ceremony. Just a vow renewal so it doesn't really matter who does it legally. Anyone can do it.

On the to-do list:

The duck tour of the city
a night out at a club just us girls (Rachel, Beth, and I)
A night out just Ryan and I (we never had a honeymoon)
the children's museaum and well...all the museams!
Spend a day in Salem (probaly while Ryan's going to a football game w/ an Uncle)
See Landsdown St. and Fenway Park
Souvanier (sp?) shopping!
A family dinner with as many folks as I can fit in the time share! :)
Lunch w/ my old friend, Heather, who moved to Boston a year or so ago.

Can I fit all of that in 5 wonderful days?? Hope so! ;)

*edit...found out from wonderful hubby that we have nearly 10 days!~ :)

H is coming over with her kids, her brothers, and her parents! HORAY!

Happy Lughnassadh Everyone! It was technically last night but we're celebrating tonight.
Hope everyone has a nice and wonderful day!

Downloaded the live Omnia CD from their web site. It is a free download of that one CD. Go to www.worldofomnia.com and go to download CD. You can fill out a simple thing basically letting them know who you are but they won't send you spam or anything. Then you are free to download. If you want to you can make a donation but you don't have to. The music is amazing.

I am so tempted to be play sick and go home. Can't though. Not if I don't want to get fired.

yeah, I don't think I'm going into programming. While I'm not sweating this class will keep me from my degree...(only have 5 more weeks left and at this point I just hope for a passing grade), I am still upset. I guess because my first quarter just flowed into my brain like water in a waterfall to a pool below. I'm stuggling in this course like an English speaking person struggles when they travel abroad and they have lost their translation dictionary. *le sigh* My professor is good though. Not his fault I'm struggling and he is trying to help. He won't leave a student stranded. While I'm currently holding an A in the course, after today's test, I'll probaly end up with a D before the next the 5 weeks is out.

Going to dinner and then to see Harry Potter! Well, hopefully we can get tickets. If not, we still haven't see Star Trek yet, Angels and Demons is also out, Transformers....I know I can pick something. *wink*

Right now I'm just chillin' while Elora takes a nap but I do have some laundry to do soon.

Cleaned out the fridge (ew), did the dishes, started laundry, made breakfast for Elora, mowed the lawn (all 3/4 of the acre), mopped the kitchen floor, took out the trash for the trash pickup today. Even went to the pool while DH took Elora out for a while. What a treat that was.

DH got Elora some lunch out and brought me back my favorite veggie burger. Wow. Althought little one is playing in her bedroom, she is offically in there for a nap. She'll nap in a bit.

I still need to vacuum, do some more dishes, change the litter boxes, and dust the living room. Put laundry away. But right now I think I'm going to enjoy the rest of today and do that stuff on Saturday. Sunday I have class mate over to work on Math with me. I also need to get to completing that program that is giving me a headache. *sigh*

Seriously. Reason why I need to do this:
1. The control she still has over me
2. She is a user
3. She is a liar
4. She constantly brings me down
5. My only value (anyone's only value to her) is how much money she can get out of you or how much she thinks you owe her
6. She constantly tries to make me feel guilty because I have made better choices and at 34 years old is far ahead of where she was at the same age. I won't end up like her (jobless, in poor health because she won't take care of herself, in a toxic co-dependant relationship with everyone around her, etc, etc, etc)
7. She is a control freak

Anyone from my livejournal remembers some of what I have posted about her in the past. I really just need to make this break. I can't grown and continue healing from living with her and letting her control me for so long as long as she is part of my life unless she changes. I hope she does change but I don't think she will because she doesn't see that her enviroment adn why she is unhappy has to do with her. Karma is coming around to her and she expects me to save her. Well, I have tried but unless someone is willing to admit they have a problem, they cannot heal and move on.

So for now, I keep my house phone unplugged, and she doesn't have my cell number. She has DH's cell number but he isn't talking to her either. He supports me in this and thinks I should have made this break a while ago though it is a tough choice to have had to make (she *is* my mom) and didn't want to push me into it.
*sigh* I was so angry after talking to her for all of about 5 minutes last night that I told DH that as far I was concerned my daughter has only one grandmother, his mom. That's how far I've been pushed. My bridge isn't the only one she has burned over the years. I guess that is why she is stuck in failed marriage number 2 and lonely, friendless, and trapped in her current state.

So in the future, if I mention "mom" I'm talking about my mother-in-law. I mention Cathy....that is my mom. yeah...I refuse to call her mom/mother/etc. anymore. No mother would resent their child's happiness and want to hold them back.

I just love this picture I took of Autumn (my torbie). She has a way of giving you a certain scrutiny. LOL! Totally condesending.

Anyhow, I have been busy this morning. Woke up at 10am w/ Elora and we made breakfast together. Multigrain pancakes with raisins. YUM. I like mine with some cherry preserves on them instead of syrup. Elora likes hers plain and sometimes some maple syrup on the side so she can just dip her pancake in it.

Then, I had made some sourdough bread starter about a week ago so I made some sourdough bread today. YUM! Your all should just smell my kitchen! I also mopped the kitchen floor (gotta love my pine cleaner!) and I did 2 loads of dishes. Cleaned the litter box and generally picked up the living room made some lunch, some iced coffee, and now Elora is down for a nap. I'm catching up on blogging. Maybe a little WoW before hubby gets home. Then time for the pool!

On a class break too. Class makes Mondays fun.

Had a great weekend. Took Elora swimming though. OMG! I think I need to get her into swimming lessons! She's totally fearless and gets mad because I won't let her go in the pool! She has no concept what so ever that she can drown! She nearly has a doggie paddle down though. She is a natural lover of water just like me but it is really scary how fearless and how strong she is. She nearly squirmed away from twice and did get away from DH once. *sigh* She definately needs some lessons from a pro. Mommy and daddy can't keep up. I'm going to try to find her some Friday lessons so I can take her. It won't be cheap but it will be sooooo worth it!

I also found out that at least once a month on a friday evening, a local L'ville dance studio has bellydance classes! HORAY! I've longed to dance with some other women. I watched them perform over the weekend and I'm hooked! They are so beautiful! I was in love!

My soul belongs to the sea
It is a chain around me that sets me free
When I pass from this world, may the Goddess
Take me back to the sea.

Hope everyone has a happy and safe July 4th.

I took it easy today. I've been up really late so not getting much rest since I'm going to school too. About 4 1/2 hours a night! :) So today I slept until 8am and decided to get up. I started cleaning the house and woke Elora about 10am. Made us pancakes and cleaned the bathroom while she read some books (well, looked at her books, she is only 19 months!) while Hubby slept. He gets home from work at 8:30am. We had some quality *us* time before Elora woke up *grin*.

At 2pm, Elora went down for a nap and so did I. I don't usually nap in the afternoon but then I was up early this morning and cleaned the house. I got most of the projects around the house done. I laid down too and none of us woke up until 5:40pm! Wow! So we went out for pizza, browsed Home Depot and dreamed about renovating our home, got some paint samples because the quickest and easiest thing to do is the paint the house! Elora's room will be a sunshine yellow! :) Hopefully by fall. :) :)

Grocery shopping and bought some stuff to barbeque with and some "boom booms" as Elora calls them. Now it is PJ time and bed time (for Elora anyhow, though I'm already in my tinker bell PJs....)

Maybe I'll play a little WoW tonight.

Normally I can ignore it as I have to deal with so many different kinds of people in my line of work and even when I was in retail.

There is this one guy that in less than 2 minutes of his walking in the door, I'm resenting him. He'll ask how you are doing only because he wants you to ask him so he can tell say something like "I'm still breathing" or "I'm fair" or something like that. For the longest time complains about not having a job but then he gets a job and it's not good enough. Not enough hours, he works too hard, not close enough to home....
Ya know, in this economy, be freakin' happy you have a damn job to go to. Many people I know are still looking. Another one of his little catch phrases is "I'm better now that I see you". Not only does it make me want to totally want to gag but he says it all the women. It's just sooooo fake.

You know I wonder that he was without a job so long because during job interviews employers could see the lack of genuine in him.

And he sooooo acts like we're friends. We soooooo would never be. And he's always in my buisness as if it's any of his. Really, if he comes near me today.....I just might strangle him.

Had a really busy weekend. Saw the BoSox play at Turner Field on Friday and Sunday! Whooot! The game on Sunday was a gem even though the Sox lost. Our friend Nick got hit in the jaw with a foul ball (we were 19 rows back from the field in foul ball territory. Though none of us caught the ball, we did get on national TV! LOL

DH sent me a text at the office about it and I got to see the clip when I got home. It was soooo funny! :)

Bet Nick was sporting a nice bruise yesterday. :)

Oh, btw...the cute lil' user pic is my little Elora that I post so much about in case you all were wondering what my wee one looked like. :) Cute as a bug in a rug, isn't she???

I've been watching my communities but haven't posted myself yet. I'm a big believer in the fact that if I make an effor to post there, so will other members. Tonight I will post in all my currently active ones and delete the ones that I just seem to properly get off and running.

Ciao!